Do you want to get better? →

And so Jesus asks him a question. The most important question in fact that anyone in any kind of trouble can be asked, and the first question that they should be asked:

‘Do you want to get better? Do you really want to be changed?’

Modern treatments for addictions of any sort ask that question of all those who present for treatment. Do you REALLY want to get better, because if you can’t answer YES to that question immediately, no amount of counselling or treatment will work.

I had to leave church before the sermon this week because of my blinding headache, and that’s a shame as the sermon sounds right up my street!

I know from personal experience that, where addiction is concerned, if you don’t really want to get better, you won’t, no matter what rehab you go through or counselling you take. My wife ‘suggested’ that I go to AA years ago, and it didn’t work. It wasn’t until I wanted to get better that it worked.

And every day I thank God that I’m one of the lucky ones.

Staying with paleo when you’re poorly

Fresh Loaf

I woke up yesterday with one of my headaches. This one was a blinder. But, it being Sunday, I tried really hard to take pain killers to dull the pain enough so that I could function. It didn’t work.

Fast-forward to Monday morning. It was worse. So I stayed in bed, gobbling down meds and dozing. The pain started to subside in late afternoon, so I got up. I was soon feeling hungry, but I was hankering so bad for some fresh bread with a thick layer of butter and a tin of Heinz minestrone soup. Just as I did back in the drinking days when I was hungover.

So I thought to myself, ‘can I justify having some gluten just because I’m poorly?’. Lorraine had just taken a fresh loaf out the break maker and the smell was wafting around the house.

I didn’t though. I stayed strong.

I’ve heard from a few paleo followers that taking wheat after a long period of abstinence can make you feel rather ill, so thinking of that was enough for me to continue to abstain. I had a plate of grilled gluten-free sausages, bacon and fried eggs instead.

But then, boy oh boy, I had the strongest urge to eat chocolate that I’ve had since going paleo. There just happened to be a packet of Double Deckers in the fridge and I got as far as taking one out and reading the ingredients label (yep, gluten) before I put it back and opted instead for a couple of squares of Lindt 85%.

So, as I sit here at 9 p.m., feeling as fragile as if I’d had a bottle of Scotch the day before, I’m quite pleased that I managed to stay faithful.

I hope to God that this headache is gone tomorrow.